29 aug 2011, Monday
Dear someone who my heart was lost to,
Thanks for being honest & your encouragement.
It's like...
I like you, since day one... I wasn't so sure about it, that's why i kept it silent.
Until i started having dream about you, continually for 2 days.
It felt like my first love is back, the same pain in chest..
and the tempting of seeing you again.
even thought you text reply was a bit cold , but i tried :[
27 august 2010,
we met again, i don talk much but im screaming inside cause i saw you.
That happy, i can't describe it at all.
I don have the gut to talk to you because i scare i said wrong thing.
The day was also the saddest day, it's like im not going to see you again ?
I didn't want to say goodbye, cause it the last thing i ever want to say .
After that i speak out, i took the courage to say what's in my heart.
"I'm interested in you " feeling super awkward at that point of time,
Not knowing where should i hide my face... but I already know your answer.
28-29 august 2010,
Day by day, the more i text you, the more i felt like i'm annoying you.
it's like "God damn this girl is annoying" but i thought, for that once you reply.
you actually paid attention on me, it was stupid.
When i have to give you a morning call you, i told myself not to fall asleep,
If i did, i won't forgive myself. So i stayed awake through out the whole night.
Thinking of what should i say 1st... That moment, you pick up the call.
I was super nervous, i didn't say things that was plan.
Once hang, i texted you to check if you are awake. you didn't reply.
Im so worried that you will still be sleeping and might be late for school.
so i kept myself awake until you reply but fail :(
I fall asleep... that moment when i woke up, your name appear on my phone.
I'm happy, really happy.
Didn't want to disturb you when you are studying, but you never fail to leave my mind
when out, thinking should i text you? or maybe not ?
" you're super annoying " i scare that you will felt this way.
you replied, im over excited..
Not knowing should i break contact with you? so i can study for "N"
But i know i won't concentrate. I wanted to wait after N'level.. i can't..
At last, i tell you how i felt, i know your answer, yet i still cried.
It's like, how can i fall so much love for someone i just know ?
My dear heart you must be kidding, but it not.
you are the reason i cried, you are also the reason i smile once again.
you told me we can be friend, Good friend ... at least, im happy enough.
thanks for hearing my lame joke, i know it's boring.
but you still willing to answer all the stupid question. Thanks :)
Take care of your health alright? i will try my best to be your good friend :)
To you, my dearest crush... I told myself to wait,
Even in future i asked you the same question, the answer will still be the same, i know :)
I will try my best to forget you...
11:11 was my last hope.
Thanks you & i'm sorry... that I like you :')
